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ladyfoxxx ([personal profile] ladyfoxxx) wrote2013-06-19 11:20 am

My Fannish Origin Story

Let's just pretend I've been posting regularly, shall we?

So some folk were talking about fannish origins on Twitter and it got me thinking, I don't know if I've ever really shared my origin story in any real deapth and it might actually be a fun thing to do. So, here it is.


The only reason I even heard about fanfic was because of the X Files. I was a HARDCORE X-Files fan before I even had the internet (god I sound old now). I'd heard that some folks out there in the "cyberworld" were so sure that Mulder & Scully were in love that they were writing their own stories about it and "R-ing the ST" as it were and as soon as I heard that I HAD TO READ THEM. I remember paying for time at an internet cafe JUST to search for and read fanfic.

Of course once I had my own internet at home I fell down the hole of the Gossamer archive and read ALL THE THINGS (including the terrible Mary Sues before I even realised that was a thing). I wasn't really aware or even interested in slash at first because I was a pretty hardcore Mulder/Scully shipper (they were my first OTP, before I even knew what the fuck those letters stood for).

Me being me, I didn't stay obsessed with the fandom's central pairing for long. I got pretty obsessed with a recurring character in the series, Agent Pendrell who worked in the lab, had a huge crush on Scully and was ginger haired and socially awkward.

Everyone who is surprised that I was obsessed with the dorky lab guy raise your hands. *no hands are raised* I thought so.

Now the Pendrell corner of the fandom was smaller and very friendly and welcoming and this was about the time I thought maybe I could try writing something. About Pendrell, of course. But the problem then is - who do I slash this guy with? I don't want to break up my OTP!

So my first real fic in X Files fandom was a threesome.

Everyone who is surprised raise your hands. *no hands are raised*

Of course there it was only a very small step between writing Mulder/Scully/Pendrell to writing Mulder/Pendrell and the wonderful world of slash opened it's arms to me.

I haven't read any of those old fics in years and I'm a little afraid to. I'm pretty sure the bulk of them are in first person. Oh GOD.


I honestly can't remember how I went from The X Files to Savage Garden. Like, it's a weird leap, right? I mean, I was reading ALL the things (Star Wars episode one, Velvet Goldmine, all the different pairings in X Files etc), but somehow when I discovered that there was a small circle of people writing fic about Savage Garden I was THERE. I was hopping through webrings (ha ha ha WEBRINGS) and reading everything. Not all of it was great. In fact, lots of it was terrible, and a lot of it was getting written in parts with no real idea when (or even IF) the next part was coming. Also not all multipart fics necessarily had proper content warnings thus how I wound up reading a multi part WIP that suddenly had surprise!mpreg and it kind of put me off mpreg for LIFE.

For anyone not familiar with Savage Garden they were a pop duo in the 90's/00's - they had a lot of hits with love songs. I didn't even want to sleep with either of them, I just really liked reading about them. Plus I was totally qualified to write about them because they were from my hometown. In fact, Darren (singer) worked at my local music store when I was a wee thing.

So anyway, RPS. OMG. RPS was SUCH a dirty word in fandom back then. I'm not entirely sure why, but a LOT of people writing FPS about characters in shows were DISGUSTED by RPS. And not only were we writing RPS, we were writing SLASH RPS. We were totally the SEEDY UNDERBELLY of fandom, yo. You write GAY fic about REAL PEOPLE, EW.

I remember one quite well known FPS writer made a throwaway comment about how one of her guilty pleasure was she would occasionally read Savage Garden RPS and OMG IT'S SO BAD but she COULDN'T HELP IT. I was kind of terrified/hopeful that she might one day read one of mine.

Anyway, so my first fic in Savage Garden fandom... was a threesome.

Raise your hands all who are surprised. *no hands are raised* It was Darren/Daniel/Daniel's girlfriend and it all went terribly because of course Daniel professed his love to Darren in the middle of rumpy-pumpy and broke her heart and ANGST ANGST ANGST.

Savage Garden fandom was FUN. We were a small fandom and we had plenty to work with (I mean, Darren is out these days, but back then he just liked to be "ambiguous"). I'm pretty sure I wrote the first high school AU and the first hooker fic, but don't quote me on that. Of course, then the band broke up (as they do) and while the fandom kicked on a while after it eventually died.


I think it was around this time that I thought fandom had died altogether, because the mailing lists (yes, we used to do fandom on mailing lists, GOD I am old) were getting less and less active. I was kind of falling away from fandom anyway, with my own fandom dying and no real interest in a new one so I never really figured out that fandom wasn't DYING but CHANGING.

Fast forward about seven years where I'm pretty much out of it but occasionally checking in to dead mailing lists and I get an email out of the blue from [personal profile] amproof to let me know my (Savage Garden Fanfiction) geocities site is about to go down forever. Of course this is the point where I learn fandom isn't DEAD it just MOVED - to LJ, so I get an LJ, fall face-first into the disgusting, beautiful, stage-gay-ey world of MCR. Like everyone I started with Frank/Gerard but pretty soon it was ANYONE/ANYONE, with a particular bent of Ray/anyone. Also I avoided Panic at first because I thought they were babies but I totally didn't hold out long there, not with all the awesome GSF and BDSM to be had.

Interestingly upon my return to fandom I noticed that RPS was NO LONGER a dirty word, probably because fandom seemed to have moved beyond that to push more taboo boundaries like incest *hands*. No really, it took me quite a while to get past that. But oh, I DID.

So that's my Fannish Origin Story. What's yours?
annemari: A close-up of Amy Pond looking down. (mcr; gerard; capturing moods)

[personal profile] annemari 2013-06-19 01:25 pm (UTC)(link)
This is so interesting. o____o Like, I never knew RPS was considered gross? (I mean, I DID know before I read this, but not when I got into fandom.) Then again, I got into fandom in 2004 right before the HP POA movie came out, so maybe by that point it was okay. Probably, yeah. Plus the first RPF I read wasn't slash, it was an Emma Watson story that someone posted in an Emma Watson forum, where Emma went on dates with Dan, Rupert and Tom, and ended up choosing Rupert, EXCEPT they made it seem like she chose Dan and there was a twist ending. SERIOUS STUFF. Actually, it was the first fic I read, period. I mean, it was kind of Mary Sue-ish, because EVERYONE was in love with her. BUT at the same time it's Emma Watson so it wasn't really a stretch! No, but so then I got LJ because people were posting their icons there.

Basically it took me 4 years after that to really get into slash and therefore fic. Meanwhile I was... making graphics on various forums (like, Smallville (I was into Clark and Lana. And Lana. Lana, Lana, Lana)) and then LJ (when I was into, like. Veronica Mars and Doctor Who. I never read any fic for these, hmm). And then in 2008 Merlin happened. And I wrote some Skins fic, I guess. Hmm. Fandom. *hands*
Edited 2013-06-19 13:26 (UTC)
annemari: A close-up of Amy Pond looking down. (mcr; gerard; most adorable)

[personal profile] annemari 2013-06-19 03:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I keep forgetting I did stuff for those fandoms? Like, I was also in a BTVS + ATS etc forum where I made some Buffy graphics, and there were some actresses (like Emily VanCamp, Michelle Trachtenberg) who I was into (watched videos, made graphics), but mostly it was a solitary type thing, actually. I mean, barring Smallville and other forums where I sort of participated. I think if I'd have to count all my main fandoms that I've been into then I'd say... Emma Watson (NOT Harry Potter, because I never really read fic for that, lol. I read some Remus/Sirius when I discovered slash, but I wasn't really IN the fandom), then briefly Merlin (show + fic and participation, etc), then American Idol season 8 (but mostly Kris and Adam, and then only the Adam Lambert fandom) and then bandom. *CLINGS TO BANDOM* I don't think I've ever felt as home in a fandom as in bandom.

But yeah, I don't read a lot of fic in other fandoms, but I do sort of count them as "I'm into this" but, on a show level? So I'd say I'm into Doctor Who, Teen Wolf, and I used to be into Veronica Mars and such, but never truly in the fandom. Either because I just wasn't interested (Veronica Mars; it was more of a "my flist was into it and that was it", Skins, etc) OR I hate the majority of the fandom and haven't found a corner I really enjoy (except my tumblr dash,or feed, but I don't count that as a fandom, just as a good place) (Doctor Who and Teen Wolf fall under this, crol) (and I don't read fic for them, because nothing's calling out to me). I mean, you could also say that bandom would fall under "don't like the majority of the FANS" (I'm thinking of tumblr here), but yet I still am TOTALLY IN BANDOM because my feed is and I read it and write it, soooo. ... COMPLICATED idk idk. These are my thoughts. \o/