Um. Okay, I'm going to do something which I almost never do, which is talk about why sometimes a fic makes me feel ALL of the ~~feelings. So if that's not--I mean, I totally get it if you want to stop reading now. [sheepish] I'm only doing this because you seemed confused/amused by the whole thing, and I can only speak for myself but as it happens this is something that I can possibly say something about.
And seriously, oh my god, I'm saying a lot here, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD FEEL FREE TO DELETE IF THIS SORT OF FEEDBACK ISN'T YOUR THING. :((((
2. Price Of Pretty 1634 I find it HILARIOUS that this is number two. 1600 hits and ZERO comments and mostly guest kudos? WHO ARE ALL YOU PEOPLE READING THIS FIC? You don't want people to know about your thing for spanking? Is that it? I DON'T UNDERSTAND. Well far be it for me to judge. GO YOU GOOD LURKERS. MORE POWER TO YOU.
I have a lot of feelings about this fic. To be perfectly honest, when I'm in the wrong frame of mind it comes close to being a squick. It's exceptionally well written, well plotted, and even the characterizations are freakishly close to my mental images, which maybe makes it even more difficult to read sometimes since the scenario is one that (in my head) requires a lot of spadework before it can make sense--since the spadework is mostly done in the first story, this second story is a bit like plunging in the deep end and it's jarring to go from, oh say, reading a fluffy story like One Hundred Percent to Gerard being physically punished for something he can't control. It's implying a lifestyle BDSM relationship, which makes me uncomfortable in entirely different ways mostly related to choice and consent and strays a little into my generally flailiness over dictated gender role territority, and it's dilemma play which is again rater uncomfortable since I tend to identify with the dilemma, it's spanking which isn't really my kink and it's A LOT of spanking which sort of doubles down on something that isn't really my kink and there's even that point when Gerard's seriously considering his safeword and there's been times that I've read it and I've been thinking "JUST SAY IT BB MAKE IT STOP ;____;" and getting all flustered and worried.
And yet. And yet. [helpless] None of that means that I don't like it. I can honestly say without any exaggeration I have read this fic at least forty times. Because I keep coming back to it. BECAUSE it is incredibly well written. BECAUSE it pushes me out of my comfort zone. BECAUSE Gerard doesn't safeword, because he trusts Frank all through it and yes, okay, sure it's a heavy, edgy, sort of violent, sort of painful, maybe even sort of dangerous game they're playing, but it's still a GAME and it's still THEM PLAYING IT, and the next morning Gerard's still Gerard and Frank's still Frank and they're still real and them and recognizable and themselves, all the special things that they are. It's heavy but consensual, it's hot like fucking BURNING, and because sometimes, fuck, this is TMI but frankly I think this is all probably TMI, sometimes when my hand is down my pants and I've been reading porn for the last hour and it's awesome but I'm getting tired and I just want to get off NOW, sometimes I load up this story and read it and it does the trick. Every. Single. Time.
A great writer can make me believe anything. Even stuff I'm not sure I want to believe. And a great writer can make me like anything, even stuff I'm not sure I want to like.
I'm going to go hide now, since I'm pretty sure this is INCREDIBLY not what you were looking for, but. Basically I think you're a great writer--one of the greatest in the fandom,and one of the greatest I've ever read. And sometimes your stories make me uncomfortable, and I don't really know what to say to them, but at the end of the day...I read them anyway.
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And seriously, oh my god, I'm saying a lot here, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD FEEL FREE TO DELETE IF THIS SORT OF FEEDBACK ISN'T YOUR THING. :((((
2. Price Of Pretty 1634
I find it HILARIOUS that this is number two. 1600 hits and ZERO comments and mostly guest kudos? WHO ARE ALL YOU PEOPLE READING THIS FIC? You don't want people to know about your thing for spanking? Is that it? I DON'T UNDERSTAND. Well far be it for me to judge. GO YOU GOOD LURKERS. MORE POWER TO YOU.
I have a lot of feelings about this fic. To be perfectly honest, when I'm in the wrong frame of mind it comes close to being a squick. It's exceptionally well written, well plotted, and even the characterizations are freakishly close to my mental images, which maybe makes it even more difficult to read sometimes since the scenario is one that (in my head) requires a lot of spadework before it can make sense--since the spadework is mostly done in the first story, this second story is a bit like plunging in the deep end and it's jarring to go from, oh say, reading a fluffy story like One Hundred Percent to Gerard being physically punished for something he can't control. It's implying a lifestyle BDSM relationship, which makes me uncomfortable in entirely different ways mostly related to choice and consent and strays a little into my generally flailiness over dictated gender role territority, and it's dilemma play which is again rater uncomfortable since I tend to identify with the dilemma, it's spanking which isn't really my kink and it's A LOT of spanking which sort of doubles down on something that isn't really my kink and there's even that point when Gerard's seriously considering his safeword and there's been times that I've read it and I've been thinking "JUST SAY IT BB MAKE IT STOP ;____;" and getting all flustered and worried.
And yet. And yet. [helpless] None of that means that I don't like it. I can honestly say without any exaggeration I have read this fic at least forty times. Because I keep coming back to it. BECAUSE it is incredibly well written. BECAUSE it pushes me out of my comfort zone. BECAUSE Gerard doesn't safeword, because he trusts Frank all through it and yes, okay, sure it's a heavy, edgy, sort of violent, sort of painful, maybe even sort of dangerous game they're playing, but it's still a GAME and it's still THEM PLAYING IT, and the next morning Gerard's still Gerard and Frank's still Frank and they're still real and them and recognizable and themselves, all the special things that they are. It's heavy but consensual, it's hot like fucking BURNING, and because sometimes, fuck, this is TMI but frankly I think this is all probably TMI, sometimes when my hand is down my pants and I've been reading porn for the last hour and it's awesome but I'm getting tired and I just want to get off NOW, sometimes I load up this story and read it and it does the trick. Every. Single. Time.
A great writer can make me believe anything. Even stuff I'm not sure I want to believe. And a great writer can make me like anything, even stuff I'm not sure I want to like.
I'm going to go hide now, since I'm pretty sure this is INCREDIBLY not what you were looking for, but. Basically I think you're a great writer--one of the greatest in the fandom,and one of the greatest I've ever read. And sometimes your stories make me uncomfortable, and I don't really know what to say to them, but at the end of the day...I read them anyway.